One of the curses I endure is a mind that never - and I mean NEVER - stops turning gears. The one relief I have for that, no - isn't sleep, but meditation. Gosh dang that's some hard stuff to do sometimes, but in quiet moments I can find clarity and breathe. I guess that's part of the reason I'm so grateful for yoga. It's "me" time.
Another coping mechanism for my noisy mind is my blog. Sometimes the ability to put things down and be able to "let them go" is powerful. Being able to leave behind the memory or hurt so you don't have to hang onto it anymore, helps.
I'm one of those women who believes in true love. It's harnessed by the feelings of excitement, joy and fulfillment. When you find another person to accept you, as imperfect as you are, oh, how perfect it can feel! Deep down inside I truly believe that there is more than one person for each person out there. It depends on when in your life and under what circumstances you meet them. I've dated both ends of the age spectrum and can see if I had been divorced sooner and was out dating, I don't think I'd have the wisdom I have now.
Do I think I'm ready to marry. No, not me. I'm still discovering and sifting through the things in my life that once held me back before. It's a matter of taking the time to find the good qualities in myself and then believing it. Meanwhile, I date. That's a process of sifting through the crap, the less than desireables, the boys looking for a sugar mama, the men looking for their Barbie or pet.... and finding a man who will take ya, and make you great.
I met him once before... he got away. Perhaps I'll find that again and all will be right in the world.
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