When Tragedy Strikes

I am now at the point of being at a loss for words, and have the words ready I have mulled around all day.  People ask how do we get this problem from happening again?  While there is not one PERFECT answer that we could do, I think a lot of what we need to do is start being better people the moment we are entrusted with little people to care for.

Now I am not saying that it is mandatory that we become strict rigid parents and shield them from the world.  That is wrong.  What I am saying is that we teach our children responsibility, love, and safety.  In a response to a facebook comment I left on a friend's page:

"I think the biggest statement we can take from this is to teach our children to be responsible human beings; keeping their rights, their morals, and our love close to them... and teach them that they are worthwhile. It may not be popular, but I taught my girls to shoot a BB gun this year as an entry into guns. I believe in protecting yourself and being responsible with it, and passing that responsibility onto your kids."

I have to wonder if the young man who did this, really knew he was a worthwhile human being buried beneath the darkness?  What was his support system like?  It is this young man's fault that he pulled the trigger, but I'm wondering where everyone else was in his life?  I wonder what happened with his mother that would leave him so angry he'd shoot her at work, and then, turn and fire on innocent children.

When you look at this world, there is a huge lack of love.  Does it take something this tragic to make you love your children and appreciate them more?  Does it make you grateful you have presents, however inexpensive or expensive they may be, that your children will open, and won't be left untouched?  Love is the greatest power in the universe.  Truly.  

People create things because they love to, because it makes them feel good.  All I can think is there was a lack of love somewhere for something like this to happen.  So, yes, be the change you want to see in this very sad world.  Change the way you treat and talk to people.  You never know that your passing glance in judgment or lack of acceptance may be the straw that breaks the trigger puller's back.

Be Kind.  Give Love.  Find Peace.

All my best, 
Amy

It's been a long road, but I love you!

So ladies and gents, here it is.  A breakdown of my breakdown lately.  I've suffered with PTSD for about two and a half years know.  See here.  Recently, I went to see this Chiropractor who also does wellness and what not, and she suggested I get my adrenals tested.  So I did.  On a level of 1-7, seven being the lowest function, I got a six.  Yep.  That explained the extreme exhaustion, lack of weight loss, and motivation for much.

Bounce ahead to today.  It's been one week since I started to take these new supplements and feel better.  I'm loaded with; B complex - with Calcium, a super multivitamin, Super Concentrated Cranberry Extract, Vitamin D, Vitamin E, Iron, Flax Oil (for Omega fats), biotin for hair and nails, lowered my Paxil dose to half, and will half again soon so I can wean off, added Wellbutrin back in on a low dose to help balance the Paxil nonsense, still take my thyroid medicine, sleep more than I used to, practice real breathing and yoga more often, drink more herbal teas, and if you read all of that, I'm impressed.

It's been some sort of rollercoaster I have been on, with this adrenal problem, but now that I am on the mend, I feel better.  I have to remember I can't take on so much at once and that I need to do what I can, and do my very best and not more than I should.  I think overload was a big part of my adrenal fatigue, because I constantly lived in a stressful situation, I would stress on top of other things and drain myself totally.  Thank heavens for miracles!

Anyway - I'm grateful to feel back enough to get a post up and to feel a bit more alive again.  I thank you for your patience in this life-long journey we have.  May you find peace and love with all that you do.

~Amy